Sunday, May 31, 2009

1st time I slept so many hours! =P

31st of May, sunday

Yesterday I was really tired.
So I went to bed about 11.30pm.
When I woke up already 8am.

Wow~
I slept almost 9hours...
This is the first time I sleep so many hours.
But before that,
everyday I only can sleep for 3-5 hours.
Haha...

Today full of energy~
Later I'll go out with my parents lo.
about 1pm I guess...
and maybe till night. =)

Everyone, have a nice holiday ya~

Saturday, May 30, 2009

A Poem Which I Love

* This is a poem which I love it very much. It's quite meaningful for me. I learnt many things from this poem. Hope you'll like it too. =) *
If
If you can keep ypur head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream-and not make dreams your master;
If you can think-and not make thoughts your sim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and builed 'em up with worn-out tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with croeds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch:
If neither toes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

written by: Rudyard Kipling
(This poem is he, as a father of a son wrote this to his son to teach him how to be a Perfect Man.)

Friday, May 29, 2009

Finished My Job

29th of May, friday

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY !!!

Today we celebrate Teacher's Day with our school teachers.
A nice and sweet Teacher's Day that I never see before.

All form 4 prefects in charge all the activities today.
Quite tired actually...
But I'm happy,
because all the teachers look happy... =)

I in charged in PA sistem.
I though I'll be scolded by them (ms cheng, ms ling or pn peh),
but they didn't comment about it at all...
Phew... =P
Actually I'm quite fear while activities are running...

While lunch time,
we stayed back to serve the teachers.
The foods are so delicious... haha~
How I know it?
Because......
we ate the foods too after teachers leaving there.

For me, I felt that Teacher's Day for this year not too bad.

haha~ Finally finished my job, everythings seen good...
love it very much too~

All teachers have a nice day ya~

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Exam Over...

28th of May, thursday

Finally exam over!!!
Yeah~~

But....
actually I'm not that happy
compare to others.

I lose to myself.
I did badly in this exam...
sigh*

I'm going to say sorry to all my teachers.
Especially Mr Lee (trainer)..
I dare not to tell him I did how bad in his chemis paper.
I'm disappointing him...
really sorry~

add maths paper...
sigh again*
I failed it once more.
there're only 6 people passed.
guess how many marks I get for my add maths?
I dare not to say...
It's extremly bad~ >.<

This holiday must do more revision already.
gambateh~~

Sunday, May 24, 2009

真羡慕~

24th of May, sunday

Erm...
突然发现,
我身边的朋友们都好幸福哦~
真是令人羡慕....

就讲昨天好了.
一对情侣要面对考试,
他们都互相陪着对方读通宵,
整夜都没睡...
他们真的是对幸福的小情侣,对吗? =)

今早又去看了一个老朋友的部落.
之前为了某人而伤心不宜,
现在却是幸福到....
比吃了蜜糖还甜叻~

哇~真是羡慕死咯 ^^
多希望自己也可以这样,
被人爱着, 保护着的感觉该有多好啊~

**这是吃不到葡萄说葡萄"甜"吗? 哈哈~~

Saturday, May 23, 2009

沉默 VS 多话

24th of May, sunday

沉默 VS 多话

其实我发现...
爱讲话有好多坏处.
爱讲话对有些人来说简直就是"噪音".
尤其是讲了太多不应该讲的话,
而自己却不知道的...
往往到头来后果只有一个,
那就是被人讨厌.
那真的是很可怕的~

可是有些人,
天生就是嘴巴...
就像蜜糖一样.
去到哪里都很受欢迎...
讲了什么,
别人都不会觉得怎样.
真羡慕他们, 那该有多好啊~

就这样,
我选择了沉默...
沉默应该无罪吧?
可是有些人却忍受不了.
他们有些甚至认为这是在耍酷. =.="
他们都错了...

其实沉默已经伴着我很久了.
当然之前是刻意让自己这样的.
可是现在已成了我的性格, 我的习惯...
我知所以变成这样都是有原因的.

因为以我所经历过的,
讲越多只会错越多...
那倒不如少讲话惟妙.
难道不是吗?

我知道身边的朋友, 亲戚.
都会很不习惯...
认为我很怪.
怎么就只坐在那儿都不出声.
很多时候是因为没东西讲啦...
呵呵~

* 讲太多话让我失去蛮多朋友;
而沉默却只让我失去一个朋友.
*

对我来说,
我觉得沉默的杀伤力较小.
所以我才认为我的选择是对的 =)

可能每个人都有着不同的想法,
所以我没必要让别人认同我的说法.

**只要对自己有信心,
感觉对了,
做自己认为对的事,
何必理会这么多呢??
自己开心是最重要的...
难道不是吗? ^^

自己的看法:

23th of May, saturday

事情怎么会搞成这样啊?
唉哟~
算了啦...
谁是谁根本没那么重要,
对我也没影响.

是否有说谎,
只有自己懂...
反正都是透过PC的,
也不能确定什么...

其实,
我可以说是...
我不信任任何人.
抱歉~
有些人应该会很失望吧..

我只觉得这是自我保护的最好方法了.
我可不希望自己再受到那些无畏的伤害...
真的很抱歉~~

放心,
我还是你们最好的听众.
有什么事都可以跟我分享,
至少我真的不会说出去...
我保证~
哈哈 X)

Friday, May 22, 2009

still have so many days to go~

22th of May, friday

Tired~ Tired and Tired~~
Still have to suffer 4 days for the exam...
Just hope that it will end soon.
Suffering all nights
and don't even get enough time to sleep.
As I didn't sleep well for so many days,
actually I'm quite tire today.
I really can't stand this kind of life...
Later still have to attend a tuition class...
sigh*

Thursday, May 21, 2009

怎么会这样??

21th of May, thursday

今天又跟Z聊了很多.
他把静写的一些日记都告诉了我.
让我想起之前的回忆...
真的好怀念那一切.
还提到那顽皮又有点可爱的Wilson.
又让我想起那晚跟哥一起喝酒的事...
还有很多很多~
Z无意间发现了哥的blog.
打开之后竟然发现最新更新的日期是昨天.
怎么可能?
他不是什么都忘了吗??
怎么还记得自己的密码, 还更新呢?
很不可思议....
除非....
他真的骗了大家~
可是为什么他要这样做??
Z现在出去找他问清楚,
应该很快就能知道答案了吧...

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Exam~~

19th of May, tuesday

EXAM!!!!
20/5/09 ~ 28/5/09
GAMBATEH ya,
ALL MY FRIENDS
!!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Attention Please

Attention Please!!!
This is the last article which I'll post as PUBLIC.
After today, this BLOG will become PRIVATE...

Goodbye 4ever!!!

13th of May, wednesday

Impossible!!!
You are no longer stay in my heart.
No longer my friend.
My friends won't treat me like that!!
I won't feel sad because of you anymore.
NEVER!!!
We're living in the different world.
I won't regret that dicission which I did.
As I still have lots of true friends who need me more than you.
I'll pretend just like I never knew you before.
Goodbye FOREVER, my "friend"!!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

恨我自己

12th of May, tuesday

我又再做错了.
这次我真的错得很过分....
我是自己关在房间好好想想了.
我现在无法面对任何人,
包括他......
关系更不用再想要好回了.
不可能的事~
我真的很恨我自己!!!
我现在很想_.......
不想写了.

抱歉

我应该是自己在自作自受吧~
抱歉...
是我自己太多心了.
我不是要特地抄袭你,
我只是想说实话.
现在反而弄巧成拙...
我已经将它删除了.
你现在应该更恨我吧~
问题都出在我本身......
我无药可救了.

唉哟...

12th of May, tuesday

突然发现...
我好像找不到什么人谈心事.
可能是因为太夜了吧~
或是我这人的人缘不好...

之前知道我所有事情的朋友,
都一个又一个的离去了...
只剩几个....

很感激他们还在我身边鼓励我~
不过因为之前有些事没告诉他们,
所以现在无法跟他们讲...

我可不希望我把事情的经过再讲一遍.
我想即使我想讲,
你们也未必想听吧~
那故事实在太长了...
也蛮复杂的~

啊~Oral还没背.
这下惨了啦 =(
心情不太好,
没心情背 T__T

唉.............................

Monday, May 11, 2009

真的很乱...到底他是不是他??

11th of May, monday

今天的心情总觉得有点怪的,
不懂是为什么......

可能又是因为他们的事吧~
这点我并不是很确定.

我只知道自己有点乱.
在想着到底他是不是他...
我真的无法确定.

可是据我所知,
他们的共同点实在太多了...
再加上他朋友的那句话与欺骗,
现在真的搞到我有点乱.

但,我的第六感很明确的告诉我,
他从来没离开过,
他就是他...

我真的不知该怎么办好...
真的是他吗???
如果真的是他,
为何他要一次又一次的捏造故事呢?

甚至是我最信任的她,
也有很多关于他们之间的事在瞒着我.
我到底该怎样?

是该继续跟他们接触?
或是....
保持一定的距离?
又或是....
装作不认识??

有谁能告诉我,
我现在到底该怎么做才是对的?

***虽然我知道,面对每件事都要有一定的极限的.
有必要的话是该自我保护的...

可是....
因为我对他们的信任实在太深了,我才会......
唉,我怎会把自己搞成这样啊...?

真希望我的第六感是错的~~~

Saturday, May 9, 2009

觉悟了...

9th of May, sunday

经过昨天,
我终于觉悟了...

我知道这一切都不可能的.
因为你身份的问题...
所以我也不再去想那么多.

我知道....
再想下去,
再坚持,
也是没用的....
最后伤的只有自己~

每个人都有自己的秘密,
所以我不勉强你告诉我你身份的事.

从今以后,
我们就是互相信任的朋友.
其他事都再不去想...
只要对对方坦诚就好~ =)

希望你不会再次令我有那失望的感觉...

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

比赛完了~

6th of May, thursday

比赛回来咯~
老师说我们唱得很棒!!
哈哈~
他还答应我们要带我们吃东西...
其实...
只是MCD而已啦~
也没什么的.
我们好像是没得奖,
因为当天比完就回了....
可是当天大家都尽力了,
每个人都很开心 =)

这次的比赛我还蛮喜欢的.
每间学校的表演都很特别~
有些还很搞笑呢^^
真的是影像深刻...
只是有点可惜~
因为无法看完整场比赛...
=] =) X)

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

奇怪 ; 明天的比赛

5th of May, tuesday

奇怪~
他们怎么会问我那个问题...

是不是有发生了什么事??
还是...
又有什么谣言了...??

唉~
他们怎么那么多事啊?

可是...
他们的眼神,
他们的举动,
真的很令我怀疑...

可能是我想太多了吧~
算了...
顺其自然就好~

不过,
我真的不想跟"他"有任何挂钩.

好了...
明天是合唱比赛了~
CDK!!! 加油哦^^
我们要做最好的!! =P

谢了哦~

5th of May, tuesday

今天还算蛮开心的啦
真的~~
谢了^^
muackxx =D

被骗记

5th of May, tuesday

你今天真的玩大了啦~
我真的以为他...
你害我吓到哭了啦>.<
之后才跟我讲跟我玩罢了~
真是的 =.=
中计了...aiyo~~

Sunday, May 3, 2009

我知道...

3rd of May, sunday

其实我知道...
跟他们参在一起,
就像是活在一个假空间里边.
有点像是偶像剧,又有点像童话故事...

因为每件事都很假.
你们都常告诉我这点...
谢谢你们~

不过,
我还是选择了在这虚构的生活.
可能因为在那里会让我觉得一切都是美好的~
在现实的生活中,
我真的很没有安全感,
因为......

对不起,
常让你们担心了...
真的很抱歉~

Saturday, May 2, 2009

一封无法寄出的信 (二)

你离开渐进三个月了
过得还好吗?
我不时还会想起你
想起我们相处的时间
想起你所说过的话。
你在那里应该没有人欺负你吧
最近不小心开到我们之前的聊天记录
让我想起之前你还在的时候
那些美好的回忆。
我想
V和M也应该很想你吧
前一阵子我们还一直提起你
这证明你没被任何人遗忘过。
一个多月前
Z说你哥失忆了
这有点不可思议
可是又有谁知道事情的真相
是真是假?
从那时起
他不再是我哥了
他说他忘了一切
所有事情都得从新开始
我觉得不太可能吧
我们也很少讲话了。
从Z那里得知
他有跟别人打架了
一点都没有变乖。
你走了之后
真的发生了好多事情
有时都来不及接受呢~
无论你现在在哪儿
我还是会惦记着你的
跟他们俩相比
我还是比较喜欢跟你聊天
有着那种所不出的感觉。
好了不讲了
永远爱你哦!!
#Eloise# (姐)

2nd Letter for Z

2nd of May, saturday

Dear Z,

Actually I was quite worried you that day.
Really afraid that you'll do something which you'll regret forever..

But finally nothing happen =)
I was happy about that when I saw you are safe.

Anyway don't think too much,
be positive thinking.
And everythings just try it your best.
It's okay..
Don't try to give yourself too much of stress.
Then I think everything should be all right.

Hope to see you happy all over the day^^


Your sincerely,
Xuan

Friday, May 1, 2009

他们的最后一天~

1st of May, friday
昨天是你们教书的最后一天了...
真的很舍不得你们~
你们真的是个不错的老师...
我们班会想你们的~~

在你们临走前,

我们当然会抢着跟你们拍照呀!!

哈哈~~


我们的实习老师,Miss Tan & Mr Lee

Mr. Lee 的最后一堂课~


临走还要给功课 =.=


Miss Tan , 她漂亮吧~ =)
(她最后一堂课被我拍了下来.可是upload不到,以后有机会才放了)

Mr. Lee (放学后拍的~)



我们永远最爱的老师!! 爱你们哦~